Thursday, December 31, 2009

Don't Bring in the New Years with guilt from your past!!!!

I found this link at
Gospel Center Church about guilt. Don't bring in the new year with guilt on your shoulders!

I am pasting the whole article in full. All rights belong to them.




Are you haunted by mistakes in your past?

We could entitle this message 'BEING ABLE TO FORGIVE YOURSELF'....

We all have failures in our past...

Bad Decisions.....things we have SAID.....

Things we have DONE.....that we regret....

And if we let him, the DEVIL WILL CONSTANTLY BRING UP OUR PAST and hold us 'HOSTAGE' it........and he will whisper in our ear, 'Remember what you did, you have not changed....God can never forgive you for that...'

I want to show you in this lesson that EVERYONE has failures and mistakes and terrible sins in our past.....we cannot let the devil keep bringing these things up and haunting us with them...

We must...we have got to....turn them over to the Lord....confess the sin to the Lord and take full responsibility for it....and leave it with the Lord!

The Bible is full of examples of people whom had terrible pasts and the Lord was able to use these people and He can use you and I too...

We're going to look specifically at the Apostle Paul and King David and see how they were able to deal with their GUILT over their past failures.

Listen to what Paul Said in Philippians 3;13,14

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."

Now here is a man who had a horrible past....

We read in Acts 7:58 and Acts 8:1,3 some of the things Paul did in his Past (when he was named Saul):

"And cast him out of the city, and stoned him: and the witnesses laid down their clothes at a young man's feet, whose name was Saul.
59 And they stoned Stephen, calling upon God, and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. 60 And he kneeled down, and cried with a loud voice, Lord, lay not this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep.........8:1 And Saul was consenting unto his death. And at that time there was a great persecution against the church which was at Jerusalem; and they were all scattered abroad throughout the regions of Judaea and Samaria, except the apostles.......3 As for Saul, he made havock of the church, entering into every house, and haling men and women committed them to prison."

Here in these verses we see that we must put our past behind us and move on.....The Apostle Paul did and we can too!

My Friend, I don't know what the devil is haunting you with in your past, but could it be worse than the Apostle Paul's past?

As I look at a definition of GUILT, I see the following:

"A feeling of responsibility or remorse for some real or imagined offense in the past."

Perhaps of all the 'GIANTS' we have looked at so far, GUILT over our past could be described as 'The INVISIBLE GIANT' that is the heaviest to carry.....slowly suffocating, slowly crushing us to a SLOW DEATH.....

Guilt over our past failures....and the inability to FORGIVE so destructive because it is always there...

when we wake up, when we go to won't go away...

Until we finally realize that Jesus Christ has come to set the captives free!

If we allow it, the devil will enslave us to the bondage of GUILT....

Listen to 2 Timothy 2:26

"And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will."

Are you CAPTIVE to the Snare of guilt over failures and mistakes of your past, my friend?

I have talked to ladies who are guilt-ridden over an abortion they had years ago....when they followed the advice of seemed to be the right decision at the time....but the counselor never told them about the guilt that would follow in the years to come...

I have know folks who were involved in an accident years ago in which another person was seriously injured or even killed, and these people feel that they were responsible for the accident and what happened to the other person.......Maybe alcohol was involved....

and even years later they feel so much remorse that they were responsible for what happened...

I have talked to husbands and wives who got divorce from their mate and they thought at the time it was the right decision.....and now years later they know it was a terrible mistake....

but there is nothing they can do about it is too late....and they live with the regret and the guilt......

I know parents who live with the guilt that they failed their children in someway....they said or done things they regret now...that hurt their children a lot.....and they have to live with that now....


Guilt is so devastating because....



He keeps bringing it up.....every time we want to turn things around perhaps and move on in life.....the devil whispers in your ear,

"Now you remember what you did in your past, don't you?"


I wander how many people do not serve Christ because of guilt over their past? When they start to do something down at Church, there is the devil whispering in their ear again reminding them of their past.....

Let's look at another person in the Bible who had lots of guilt to deal with....King David...

As you're turning to Psalms 51, you recall the story of David.....

He was at home one night on his balcony when his army was out at war....and he noticed a beautiful woman taking a bath, Bathsheba.

Well, you know the story...He took her and committed adultery.......and she became pregnant.

He contrived a plan to hide the sin....eventually had her husband, Uriah, sent to the front line of battle where he was killed!

David thought he had his problem settled, but he didn't figure into the equation the terrible guilt that eat at his soul for the next few months.....

Finally in agony and desperation, he comes to God in Psalms 51 and confesses the sin and asks God to forgive him. Listen to the pain in this man's confession:

Psalms 51...

51:1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.

Can you hear the pain in this man's voice? Does that picture sound familiar? Does it describe you?

You see, there are....



The kind of guilt from the Holy Spirit that convicts us of our sin! If you are an unsaved person, it is the Holy Spirit who is convicting you of your need to trust Christ as Savior!

If you are a Christian like David, it is the Holy Spirit who convicts of your wrong-doing until you confess it to the Lord so fellowship can be restored!

These are good kinds of guilt!

But there is also....


Bad guilt is when we don't do anything about it...or feel we can't do anything about it.......we just let it enslave us for months and years ....allow the Devil to continue to blackmail us with!

Oh, My friend, follow David's example and take the guilt to the Lord!

From Paul and David's example, I can learn the following things about how to deal with GUILT over our past......Especially when I look at Philippians 3:13,14 again....

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."

Here's what I learn and maybe it can help you too....





What is it that is causing your guilt?

Is it real or false guilt?

Psychologists tell us there are two types of guilt...

True guilt and false guilt....

False guilt is when we blame ourselves for things that we should not blames ourselves for...

For example, I've heard people say:

"If I would have been a better wife, my husband would not have had an affair with another woman..."

"If I would have been a better parent, my child would not be wayward as he or she is today...."

"If I would behaved differently, Uncle Bob would not have molested and abused me..."

My Friend, these are LIES.....

First, we must determine if we have a legitimate reason to feel guilty.....or it is FALSE GUILT....

If our guilt is legitimate, then we must....




Now be careful here. There are some times when it is best just to take it to the Lord and leave it there.... Sometimes it does more harm to tell your wife, or anyone else about some matter of the past.... Ask yourself the question, "Will this do more harm than good by me confessing this matter to other people?"

Most of the time it is best to keep the matter private between you and the Lord....unless the situation demands public confession to other people. I would advise talking with another wise and older person for counseling and advice on whether to tell anyone else about the matter......

Often we can do more harm by opening up a can of worms.....



Many times we continue to have guilt over a sin or matter because we keep doing it....and repeating the sin! We need to, with God's help, FORSAKE THE SIN!


The devil will try to bring up failures in your past and haunt you with it, but remember 1 John 1:9...

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

God promises to forgive and cleanse us from the matter, then why should we not forgive ourselves?

Psalms 103:12 "As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us."

Hebrews 10: 17 "And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more."

Now if God promises to FORGET our sins and failures and not bring them up any more, why Should we allow the devil to keep bringing them up??


We must be willing to to forgive ourselves and move on and not let the devil ENSLAVE US to the guilt of our sins and failures in the past!

Everyone in the Bible had failures and bad decisions in their past, and like Paul, we must move on!

Listen to Philippians 3:13,14 once again,

3:13 "Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, 14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."


My Friend, perhaps your guilt is because you have never asked Jesus to forgive your sins. If you realize your sinfulness, would you ask Jesus to Save you and trust His shed blood at Calvary to pay for your sins? If you are sorry for your sins, wouldn't you call upon Jesus to save you now, trusting Him completely?

Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."


I wish you all the best and most blessed New Years. May God protect your family and friends.



Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Canadian radio jockey Drew Marshall sacrifices his sight for a week to become closer to God!

Drew Marshall used the week of Lent to try to get himself closer to God. He is very real and his search for closeness is genuine. See as he goes to service, eats with friends and searches for the "A-Ha" moment with God since he is deprived of all the distractions that sight brings.

Blind Sacrifice Day One

Blind Sacrifice Day Two

Blind Sacrifice Day Three

Blind Sacrifice Day Four

Blind Sacrifice Day Five

Blind Sacrifice Day Six

Blind Sacrifice Day Seven

Blind Sacrifice Reflections


Monday, December 14, 2009

Miami Boys Choir

Even though it is in Hebrew, I still love this song. You can feel the emotion from these boys!


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Mennonite Church

I visited a Mennonite church on Sunday and it was fabulous! I had such a good time! We sang hymns (in harmony!), and prayed and i had the great fellowship afterward. It is so funny how i felt so welcome even though i am so different from them, but when i go to churches that are more culturally and racially like me i did not even get the same feeling! It just proves that God transcends all race and background!

I hope to visit them again soon. I had so much fun.


Thursday, December 3, 2009

Is Advent a Catholic tradition?

I remember the Advent wreath from when i used to go to Catholic mass. Every week the priest would light a candle. Now when i look up Christmas curriculum to help me teach the kids about Christmas, i keep reading about advent. As a Christian, should i celebrate it?



Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!


The turkey is almost done (we bought a new one and it turned out that the other one was fine,), i just came back from the store cause i forgot the yams, the tv is playing Christmas favorites, and all is well.

I have a sense of joy and peace. I try not to think of my mom. I don't want to become melancholy. I just want to enjoy this holiday with my family and pray that you are having a blast with yours.

Even if your blessings are big or small, may you thank the Lord graciously for them all.


With Love in Christ,

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Thanksgiving Woes

Some of my thanksgiving bad luck.

I only remembered to buy the turkey, mac n cheese, and stuffing.
Well it's okay because my father says that he is now NOT coming to our thanksgiving, but will go to my uncle's house and watch the game....


I bought the turkey last week, kept it in the fridge, now my husband says that he thinks it had gone bad because it has a smell......

I bought the apple pie a few days ago for thanksgiving dinner, and my father ate a big chunk of it last night....uhh... thanksgiving is tomorrow.

These things only happen to me. Oh well.

Here is a picture thought, that you might like.



Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I love the Word

As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk ye in him: Rooted and built up in him, and stablished in the faith, as ye have been taught, abounding therein with thanksgiving. Colossians 2:6-7



Monday, November 23, 2009

Begin the day with God poem

Begin the day with God,
Kneel down to Him in prayer;
Lift up thy heart to His abode
And seek His love to share.

Open the Book of God
And read a portion there;
That it may hallow all thy thoughts
And sweeten all thy care.

Go through the day with God
Whate'er thy work may be;
Whether thou art at home or abroad,
He still is near to thee.

Converse in the mind with God;
Thy spirit heavenward raise.
Acknowledge every good bestowed
And offer grateful praise.

Conclude the day with God,
Thy sins to Him confess;
Trust in the Lord's atoning blood
And plead His righteousness.

Lie down at night with God,
Who gives His servants sleep;
And when thou tread'st the vale of death,
He will thee guard and keep.

- Author Unknown



Sunday, November 22, 2009

Obama admits he's a muslim!

YaKheena sent me this link. I could NOT believe it!!!!! I am in total shock.



Saturday, November 21, 2009

Weekly Homeschool Highlights

MFW Blog Roll

Well it's about time you see something from our homeschooling home don't you think? Eventhough i am generally embarrassed because I'm new at this and don't seem to be quite as organized (or even presentable) as everyone else is!

We are making pottery by mixing cornstarch, flour, water and salt. Don't ask me for the exact measurements because although there were instructions, i made a mistake with the measurements and just winged it!







My daughter's masterpiece

My son's masterpiece

Now you may ask, where is yours? didn't quite make it past the clay stage. *eyes downward* I failed art in high school.


Friday, November 20, 2009

Thursday, November 19, 2009

New Button thanks to YaChnna!!!

YaChnna made me a button!!!! She TOTALLY surprised me! Isn't it cute? It's my babies.
Mommy's Idea

So feel free to take my button if you want. And thank you soooo much for this YaChnna, you are such a good friend!!!!!


Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Go Light Your World!


From the beginning it was made clear the darkness and light were different. One good, one bad. God is the light. He was the light from the beginning, and is the light in our lives for us to share.

And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness. Genesis 1:3-4 (emphasis mine)

No man, when he hath lighted a candle, putteth it in a secret place, neither under a bushel, but on a candlestick, that they which come in may see the light. The light of the body is the eye: therefore when thine eye is single, thy whole body also is full of light; but when thine eye is evil, thy body also is full of darkness. Take heed therefore that the light which is in thee be not darkness. If thy whole body therefore be full of light, having no part dark, the whole shall be full of light, as when the bright shining of a candle doth give thee light.
Luke 11:33-36

The spirit of man is the candle of the LORD, searching all the inward parts of the belly. Proverbs 20:27

For thou wilt light my candle: the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.
Psalm 18:28


How many scriptures do we need to read to realize that the Lord is our light, and gives us light. And we are to take that light and spread it to the world! We can NOT be ashamed to say, "Hello, do you know about our Lord Jesus?"

When we became Christians, we basically signed a contract with our souls that we are to share the love of our God and our Lord Jesus! No matter the consequences. People nowadays are afraid to make people uncomfortable by talking about Jesus. They don't want the possibility of losing friends, they don't want to get out of their comfort zone. What about all our brothers and sisters who are losing their livesfor Christ? We have it easy! We take for granted how easy it is for us just to be able to talk about Christ. So why aren't we doing it?

Victoria posted a great post that everyone needs to read called I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed.

Please, go light your candle for Christ. Let's make a wildfire.


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

The sadness of classical music

While we were schooling, i had the tv off, but i had youtube on. I had it on an all classical channel that played nonstop classical music from a playlist. After about an hour, my daughter says to me, "Can't you play something else?". I told her, "Classical music is great! Without words the composer can make you feel good, or even cry!"

So she started crying. Immediately. Seriously. It was as if i dealt her an emotional blow!

Rocking, hugs, and a million kisses later, she calmed down.

The joys of parenthood.


Barack Obama is not a Christian

From the Christian Anti-Defamation Commission:


Thursday, November 5, 2009

Teaching your son to be a man

Yesterday was my son's 5th birthday. I was thinking back on his life so far, and thinking towards his future. And i returned my mind to the subject of manhood.

I've been thinking alot about this subject. With the amount of disrespect that spews from the male youth towards women these days, I am greatly concerned for my son. Why would I look into this subject and not rely on his father? Simply because he does not listen to his father. His father has spoiled him and his sister to the point that they don't take him seriously when it comes to discipline. They will constantly not listen to him, make too much noise for him (he has PTSD), and cause havoc. Now if i walk into the same room, they will almost immediately behave. This is something that i desperately am trying to change tho. Any advice you may have on the subject would be GREATLY appreciated. Because of this, i was looking for information on teaching your son to be a man. My husband was raised right. He has the upmost respect for women, knows how to be a gentleman, and how to keep his manliness. I want to try and emulate how he was raised to ensure that i get the same results from my son. But there is major differences. My husband is one of 6 kids. I only have 2. They depended on each other for support, help, and encouragement. They all knew what was expected of them and worked together for their goals. Also, it was a different world back then (just to let you guys know, my husband is 47). The kids today are in such a different world with so much more pressures that it's incredible.
And for single mothers and mothers whose husbands are unable or incapable of helping them it must be doubly hard. So here are a few resources that i found that might help.

I found a nice article on this site called The art of manliness. The whole site is devoted on being a man, and it is done with taste. They have lots of articles on fatherhood. It is an encouragement to any man.

The The Vision Forum has a whole section of their inventory dedicated to boyhood and lots of books, dvds and audio books to help you raise not only Godly and respectful boys into men, but to help the whole family as well.

I found this article at that have some great advice, but does not sugar coat anything. I do not necessarily endorse or agree with everything on the site, i have not had a chance to even go over everything on that extensive site. So please discern and browse with caution towards your heart.

"Why do you need to teach your son to become a man?" some may say. "Why not let it happen naturally?"

Because I love my son.

Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6


I want my son to grow up to be a Godly man. I want him to naturally hold doors for women, to stand up for what he believes in, to be secure in his masculinity, to want to protect women, children, and his country. I want him to marry, and give me lots of children. I do NOT want him to grow up to be a homosexual, a wife-beater, a deserter, a dead-beat dad, a good for nothing, self-centered or a crook.




See the difference?

That's what i want for my son.


Sunday, November 1, 2009

Where's my bed?

I'm so exhausted. My early morning shift 4am-9am (so i can homeschool) is a bit hard to get used to. After work, I left my job to meet my hubby and kids today in the train to go visit my friend's church. I fell asleep on the train, and woke up in Manhattan. By the time i went all the way back to meet my hubby it was past service time, and he was upset and the kids were cranky (we still had another train to get on) so we decided to just go home.
We will try again next week.
But anyway, that's one of the reasons my posts have been a bit far apart. Pure exhaustion leaves me off the computer. To get to my job at 4am, i have to leave my house at 2:30am! Then i sleep for a bit, and homeschool the rest of the day, and sleep again before i leave. *Yawn* But it's so much fun!


I never knew...Muslims hate us.


Saturday, October 24, 2009

Homeschool bumbles

I wish i could take pics of what we're doing in homeschooling, but right now I am in DIRE need of organization! lol. It's lots of fun though. My daughter is doing 1st Grade My Father's World and it is really great. But of course I'm trying to add onto it things that I think they would also enjoy. For example i downloaded an autumn lapbook and we are going to add pictures of them and pressed leaves and everything to it and i hope to keep it for memories for years to come. My family thinks I'm insane for homeschooling, my dad keeps getting whispers from his girlfriend who is a public school teacher, enough said. lol. But I'm content knowing that I'm doing what God has ordained is the best for our children. :)


Please don't let this be a reality


Thursday, October 22, 2009

It is well

Beautiful Harmony to fill my morning!